I'll share my dirty little secrets with you. The truth is ugly and so is me.
I have EDNOS.
I was anorectic some time ago. Recovery. I started to purge. To starve again. To cew and spit. Guess what?
I BECAME FAT.
I wish I could do some sports…
But I have a damaged knee and hip… it always aches when I’m doing some sports. I HATE IT. The only thing I can do is to ride my bike but I don’t have one atm.
Maybe I should try swimming but… I’m still too fat.
I’ve just purged.
I’m nothing more than a failure.
Tuesday Aug 8 @ 03:42pm
Well, I’m kind of happy right now. The bags I wrote about haven’t been found.
I was so afraid to go out of my room, but I was treated like usually.
Now I just had a peach for breakfast so I have to clean my room for some hours…
One more secret?
Well last year I was ‘recovered’.
I never told ANYONE but I gained 20 kg.
My thights touch again. More than ever.
Yesterday I wore a cute skirt but my FAT and ENORMOUS THIGHTS were rubbing each other so hard that I got a wound there. It hurts so bad.
I NEED TO LOOSE THIS AGAIN. I CAN’T STAND IT ANYMORE.
with this picture I wanna share the first secret with you.
Today I did some crew an spit. I put the rest in little bags put them on my desk. I got ready to go out with some friends and - TOTALLY FORGOT THESE DAMND BAGS. I realized it when I was already on my way and I couldn’t go back. I was nervous and worried the hole time, if someone of my ‘family’ would find them. Usually noone goes into my room but what, if someone want something from there?
Well I came home and I was shocked: my mum put my hairstraightener on my desk. Next so the bags. OH MY. I REALLY REALLY HOPE THAT SHE HASN’T SEEN THEM.
